Trying to just let it be and trust the process.
My plan was to take a plane to South Carolina this week to visit with family. But when I got pregnant, I decided not to travel. Tackling a plane ride is a challenge--one I believe I am ready to face. But life had other plans.
My family went, and I miss them. And I know it's for the better not to add the stress of trying to overcome that fear, but I feel sad for not going. Did I cop out? Was I really ready to fly after 15+ years of avoiding it at all costs?
I may never know. I'm working on overcoming another fear now....hospitals and childbirth. Never thought that one would be on my slate. But I've gotta trust. Planes will always be there. Right now, I'm just trying to keep the faith that I'm right where I am supposed to be.
In other news, this kicking baby is an amazing blessing and I'm grateful for the chance to feel life inside of me. Fascinating.