Why is it that whenever I have time to write, I'm just not in the mood?
I want to work on the book but its so complex, such an inner upheaval. Ahh memoir.
My manuscript is many words, but not written in the way I want it to come off. It needs to be deconstructed and rebuilt from the ground up. Makes me want to sleep.
But I feel it's my calling in life, so much that I sometimes have fearful thoughts that if I die tomorrow, or today, my anxiety struggles will have been for nothing. Seriously, that's how I think sometimes!
You should see me on a weekday scrambling to complete my copywriting projects when all I wanna do is sit undisturbed and write for hours. I'm beginning to think thats nothing but a fantasy.
So is the idea that a cottage would help. I'm not even sure Starbucks can gelp me today.