Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Anxiety webinar!

Scott Stossel is the author of My Age of Anxiety: Fear, Hope, Dread, and the Search for Peace of Mind. The next ADAA webinar on Wednesday, May 7, features a live interview with him about his lifelong struggles with anxiety.
Send an e-mail for the login details; type "Stossel" in the subject line and include your first and last name.
Please send your request by 5:00 pm ET, May 7.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014


This is our new addition, Leonard (Leo). We've had him just about two weeks. I miss Brady so much and it kind of cements that he's gone. I know I was ready to get a new cat, though. But I'll never forget Brady. It still stings that we lost him so suddenly in December.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Mole mode.

I think I'm going into what my buddy Von calls "mole mode." It's when you're totally swamped with a project and therefore hibernating, sort of.

I have a huge work project that's due at the end of the month, and I'm quite engrossed in it...hence not blogging much. This also means I am drinking way too much caffeine, but it's not really making me anxious.

Maybe sometimes we need mole mode. Whether it's for work, or to hibernate in other ways. Unplugging for a weekend or a day. Going on vacation. Being silent. It's just the ebb and flow of life, and I guess you can't be "on" all the time, right?

Thursday, April 17, 2014


Anxiety is all about triggers. Over time, if you can, you're able to recognize those triggers and see that the way you feel as a result of a trigger isn't dangerous--it's just a feeling. Sometimes, though, those feelings are the worst. The pits. They can engulf you.

When you're triggered, and in a state of acute anxiety, you can't really recognize the triggers. All you feel as the negative feelings wash over you and erode your sense of self. If you don't stop that process, you can be completely eroded. Still, there's always hope. For many of us, stopping the process means turning to meds. Or starting therapy. Or having a breakthrough of some sort. Getting fed up with the garbage our brains--and our triggers--are feeding ourselves.

I think it's only then that we really start to start turning the tables and eroding the power of those triggers and the negative feelings they produce.

How do you get to the point where you're in control? When do you know you can get a grip on triggers and negative mindsets that keep you engulfed?

Monday, April 14, 2014


So busy lately. I had a nice weekend with friends and family. Sad it's Monday but I want to find greatness and beauty in every day.

I'm just under a lot of stress from work. I have a lot of projects this month. Then I'm still kind of getting over all the time taking care of mom. She stayed with us a few weeks after her knee replacement. She still can't drive so I take her to PT, but I'm not doing her daily workouts with her. So I'm just focusing on her but she's more independent.

Takes me a while to come down from all of that. I've had a sore throat and exhaustion forvweeks...so my body is screaming for self-care.  I kind of know when I'm pushing too hard. Still, I feel like I should just push through. That's my old unhealthy mind at work.

So now it's all about balancing self-care and work.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


Sorry for being so quiet. I'm so busy and trying to focus on self-care. A lot is going on, and it's usually just work stuff, but I have a ton of personal stuff going on too. Family stuff.

Really, it's hard sometimes to stay afloat. Sometimes you just have to retreat from the extras. Take extra-special care of yourself. And that's what I'm trying to do. It's really tough, though, to try to adopt my healthier practices during the midst of a super-hectic time. But really, it's the only way out.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Good good feeling.

Today was kind of blissful, and I needed it bigtime.

Two huge writing opportunities fell into my lap, and I'm so grateful. To be busy and have work coming in--I mean, I've been solo freelancing full-time for nine years. I'm still amazed at my career.

I drove home from meeting with a client who I instantly clicked with and realized how far I've come. I used to rush out of meetings fearing I'd pass out just talking to someone. Today, we chatted. I then left, grabbed Starbucks and blasted the radio with the windows open, because it's finally sort of spring here. Even though I am battling a bit of a cold, I felt good.

I feel good!